Organiser Girl

• GOTYE HEART’S A MESS LYRICS
  These are such beautiful lyrics and the song that goes with it is fantastic.
  (tags: music)

I received my e-ticket on Friday, the last day of pre-departure training.

I’m heading off to Vanuatu for 6 months to work as a School Librarian at Epi High School, Lamen Bay, Epi Island. I’m going as part of a program called Australian Youth Ambassadors for Development, it’s an Australian Federal Government Program that is funded by AusAID. I’m flying there on Friday July 13th and I’m not exactly sure when I’ll be back.

My last day at work is on Friday July 6th and my last weekend in Adelaide until sometime next year is 7th/8th of July. For those of you that know me, come along to my leaving party on Saturday the 7th.

Keep your eyes on my website  and on my flickr pictures for updates.

Porridge with soy milk and canned red beans! Yum. The beans are sweet, so you don’t need to add much (maybe a table spoon full) to your breakfast. The flavour of the porridge is to die for.  Hmmmmmm I think this is the best combination I’ve had yet. I’ll have to run up and down the stairs a few times this morning to burn the sugar off though :)

Isn’t it funny how you never really screamed at my face,
but your anger so unspoken and unchannelled
permeates my essence to the point where I,
Don’t want to see you hear you, be anywhere near you,
you probably think I’m threatened by you
but your illusionary power doesn’t threaten me,
Actually I think it’s kind of funny that you create an illusion that is a mirror,
I don’t appreciate you and I know that that surprises you
I suppose you see that those who follow their heart always win,
those with integrity have won the match before it’s begun

So rather than being kicked around, I’m going to kick you to the curb
So rather than being pushed around, I’m going to push you away first
So rather than trying to protect you, I’m going to cover my bases first
So rather than trying to open my heart, I’m going to lock it with a key
So that only the special ones, so that only the special ones, can ever get through to me

Some can see beyond the barrier of threshold whereas others can’t see beyond their sculptured mould,
you could offer me nothing, you could offer me nothing that I need
Do you think I’m asking too much?
A kind of respect and trust that shouldn’t even be questioned,
how can I open my heart with dishonesty sitting next to me?
I’ve honoured your honour to the point of embarrassment,
but innocence in the hands of the guilt-free is kicked to, is kicked to the curb
I was ashamed of my innocence,
I was ashamed of my innocence but now with clarity I see that your bullshit is just not worthy of me

So rather than being kicked around, I’m going to kick you to the curb
So rather than being pushed around, I’m going to push you away first
So rather than trying to protect you, I’m going to cover my bases first
So rather than trying to open my heart, I’m going to lock it with a key
So that only the special ones, so that only the special ones, can ever get through to me

I don’t want to be angry.
I don’t want to be angry.
I don’t want to be angry.
I don’t want to be angry.

This is not worthy of me
and now with clarity I see
that I can walk away,
I can walk away

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What a great song. These lyrics have just hit home, right now. So liberating, so powerful. So… timely.